I thought I have ample of time

What if i have warned him for couple of time but he still insist.

What if I have prepared to.

What if I am disappointed.

What if my heart dead.

What if I give up.

What if I continue to.

What if I change.

What if they change.

What if my fault.

What if their fault

What if I was the one

What if I quit.

What if HE CHANGES?

The only place that I could express myself off. 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4qQCx9mxV9g

Poison

一年，七个月

这么辛苦，何苦执着？

这个毒，戒得好辛苦啊

I need a listener, so badly.

Vanish

Vanished all the dirt thoroughly. Is good to use for clothes, vice versa when it apply to body.

I can always be a good friend if you are good to me. I used to be as good as I can to everyone around me. But please do not take me for granted. Do not spread rumor about me or else you will get it from me. I chose to be silent most of the time but it doesn't mean I am fine with it.

I was waiting to see whether you have any chances or regret, but NO you do not do that. Don't ever blame for what you did before, no matter how hard, how hardworking you are.

I did my best to discuss with you, you don't think that's your problem?! Okay fine, just let it be.

If i don't care, I won't get hurt so deep, so don't even say I never care of you.

It's over.

It's dead!

I love friends :(

Limitation

There's limit for a man's patience. Please do not cross over it. 

I am seriously curious. WHY dafuq you knew that everybody dislikes you but why you still appearing non-stop. What do you need? Or what you want for me? Please give me a text and ask k? 

I have already tried my best to talk to you. But I can still feel like you are like urghh! Even my friends noticed and told me, 

People said if someone dislike you means that your attitude or behavior got problems. But now see, my friends are still there supporting me that I did nothing wrong. So wtf you blaming me all the time?

You did it so bitch-ly, so what I scared of? 

Once again, this is my territory, press exit if you find this is annoying. 

Don't try to judge me as you are not perfect too 

I really seriously extremely hope you will come and visit my blog and see how shame you are. 

Enjoyed *wink* 

Purposely blurred it, but it still clear though, any doubt? fb me eh ;)

DOOM

This is the first time, the first time I felt so helpless with my life.

This is the first time, the first time I felt so helpless with my relationship.

This is the first time, the first time I felt so helpless with my friends.

This is the first time, the first time I wish to cry but no tears.

This is the first time, the first time I wish to stay alone without talking with anyone.

This is the first time, the first time I feel I am superbly tired.

This is the first time, the first time I feel like giving up every single thing.

This is the first time, the first time I feel that I have no one else to try beside myself.

This is the first time, the first time I feel that I am tired of being the middle person.

This is the first time, the first time I feel that everything that I have done are just nothing.


I tried my very best to do every single thing, but why problems still exist. Why you still have to get into my life while I am trying hard to forget everything that you have done to me. WHY?


I want my happy life back

nyonya style sam prawn

here are the ingredients you need:




•big prawns, I had XL prawns, bigger the better

•1 bulb garlic – chopped

•2 inches ginger – cut into stripes

•2 tablespoon corn starch

•salt & pepper

•1 tablespoon worchestershire sauce

•2 tablespoon dark soya sauce

•1 tablespoon soya sauce

•a couple stalks of spring onion

•cooking oil

Prawn preparation steps:

•trim off the all appendages of the prawns with a scissor

•clean and pad dry the prawns with paper towels

•marinate prawn with salt, pepper, and cover with corn starch

•heat up some cooking oil and fry prawns till reddish (2-3 minutes)
•set prawns aside

there you go, classic fried prawns with soya sauce

So there, the dish really turned out pretty well, I actually wished that we had put in even more garlic & ginger cos they really brought out the taste of the prawns and went well with rice. For those who likes it a little sweeter, feel free to add a teaspoon of sugar too.

Mint and Soup

This is one of the fastest soup to prepare that is perfect to clear up sinus problem – the mint and egg soup. Everything can be done in about 10-15 minutes, and makes a perfect companion to another dish, or even to be consumed just by itself.

the two main ingredients – mint leaves and egg

Ingredients (for two as companion dish):



•a bunch of mint leaves – pluck and use only the leaves

•1 egg – lightly beaten

•ginger – in strips

•3-4 cloves garlic

•1 teaspoon oil

•half a chicken cube (or soup stock if you have)

•salt and pepper for seasoning 

Cooking instructions:

•with a pot, heat up cooking oil then fry ginger as it takes longer to cook

•a minute or two later, add in garlic

•when garlic is fragrant, add mint leaves, stir till you can smell the mints, around 1-2 minutes

•add egg, and cook it to the consistency of soft scrambled egg

•add 1.5 bowl of water and chicken cube (or soup stock)

•bring to boil, add salt and pepper according to taste

Ikan Pari

Gulai Tumis Ikan Pari - To the unitiated, ikan pari is actually a stingray. The meat of the stingray is nice, firm, and actually quite fascinating, because it seems to follow a certain pattern, if you know what I mean. It's like, if you were to bunch up some string, and cut a cross section, yeah, like that. Not the texture, the pattern.

Nasi lemak is one of the most versatile meals that can be found in Malaysia. This simple meal can be found almost everywhere, be it in the heart of any Malaysian city or in the remotest areas of the country. It has become such a favourite amongst Malaysian that there are some who eat it at least once everyday!

The ingredients and the cooking process involved in creating this tasty meal is simple. Nasi lemak is rice cooked in coconut milk. Screwpine leaves, locally known as pandan leaves, are first washed and later added into the cooking pot to give the rice its signature fragrance. The rice is usually eaten together with anchovies fried till golden brown, crispy cucumber slices, roasted peanuts, half boiled egg and chilli paste known as sambal.

Macarons

( Deep purple macarons - lavender coloured blackberry macaron, followed by deep purple cassis macaron)

The colours of macarons are bright and there are loads of variety - a mind-boggling treasure trove of rainbows and flavours. At the moment, there are about 16 flavours are available - cassis, passionfruit, caramel, nougat, praline, framboise, rose litchi or lychee, chocolate, noix de coco (coconut), black sesame, fraise, pistachio, citron, citron vert, vanilla and etc. My favourites are the more tart ones, as the macarons can be toothachingly sweet here. The macarons are baked in house and on a daily to alternate day basis, depending on each of the flavours. Even though they are the priciest macarons around town at RM4.40++ each, these are perfectly dome shaped and smooth with chewy centres and a distinct looking "foot" at the bottom. They come in a clear plastic box, which is tied with a ribbon, making it an attractive present for friends.

Delicious Pan Mee

(Dry and normal soup version of pan mee, with hand made noodle)

Pan Mee is one of the few underrated hawker dishes originated right around here in Klang Valley that has seen some revival as of late, most notably due to chili pan mee places such as the famous Kin Kin Pan Mee and Restaurant Super Kitchen.

There are actually many Pan Mee in Malaysia and this is one of them.

The mao is provided so that you readers know how to get all the way to that place. Enjoy! ;)

Mango lovers

Attention mango lovers! The famous HK dessert chain Hui Lau Shan will be opening at 1 Utama Shopping Centre soon. For those who haven’t been to Hong Kong before, just let me just say that it is a very common dessert shop over there – even more common than Old Town White Coffee in Malaysia. So you could say it is one of the must ‘eats’ when visiting Hong Kong.
Seasonal items are featured frequently at Hui Lau Shan too, like this Double-Boiled Hasma with Bird Nest in Coconut. Not only it was very delicious (to be honest, even better than the mango based ones) the ingredients are good for your skin and complexion too! Even the presentation is top notch as well as you can see the coconut sits on a bed of ice cubes to keep it cool.

Take a break

Exam week. 4 subjects this semester. Not that tough, not that busy, not that smooth, not that nice.


Is really hard to communicate with newbies in your life especially those that are elder.

You must be very polite which I am not, great people often and be sweet which I am not too. So yea those elderly of course gossip behind me. How I wish everyone is like my mum always nag for awhile then everything will be fine.

I was very upset something but then seriously i am not living with you later in life, I don't need to depend you for my own benefits and the most important thing is I don't born to cheer you up. So wtf don't talk behind of me, in front instead! Urghh! Stubborn


Malay and Indian are better than Chinese in term of pickiness. Don't you think so?

Chinese are like forever-not-satisfied LOL of course I am too.

and urghh! I lost weight again. WHY?! :(

This is life

There are so many people out there telling me: you should be grateful because you are still studying or you should be grateful because you have the chance to study. I never think of I don't get the chance the study and even I repeated my foundation twice. Why? Because of unsatisfied result and I still insisted i want to further my studies in Science field instead of changing to psychology, business or stuffs. Dad never complained to me that I wasted too much of money ( I mean he did but just once) and that weren't cheap to get a SAM certificate in Inti University College, also foundation and degree in UCSI. UCSI is like vampire, it sucks people money. The fees are increasing yearly like what the hell? Their quality is not worth for the price. But, no choice since I am here, no point to crap so much LOL

Daily expenses in UCSI are need to include, rental and the money I used to shop although I worked but once I text-ed dad, he will bank in money for me without asking anything. And sometimes, I will still showing my TOPSHOP shirt to mum haha I should be glad that I am born in this family I mean sometimes I do complain why people can have Gucci bag to carry their books, Ipad 2 to lecture class but I am still using notes and highlighters. But actually I had a lot more compared to others.

Anyway, I am so happy as my result getting better and better until it shocked me. Hope this will maintain until third year? hahah urghh! Syllabus are getting tougher and tougher, work loads are getting more and more like a mountain. I complained but babe boy said if you couldn't corp with this little work loads, how you gonna survive in third year and even when you working? I started to think wisely hmm this is correct

Dad said my English is improving. This is a very very good news. I am not showing off but last time I can't even speak a full sentence like u got pen ah? My friends laughed and teased me and till now I still remember their fucking face expression. Thank you for all those teasing, GOPINATH!

Life is full of different types and different kinds of obstacles, you might complain but after all you should start to think how to cross over them instead of stopping and give up. I grew up seriously, proud of myself =)


Nothing can hold me down, including you, OBSTACLES!


Those Hong Kong drama always said things that can solve with money means that is not a problem. But I think they never experience poverty before, if they did they wouldn't say this. Money is so important in today's world. Book voucher Rm200 seems quite a large number but when you spend all, the things that you bought are actually very little. That was sad. =(

Time to study, A's are coming back to me again Hooray.

I should be happy, cut down the times of complaining, smile more, don't be rude, be nice to friends and change the bad temper. Life could be beautiful isn't it? =)

我告诉自己不能哭，要勇敢面对一切

但是为什么一次又一次的打击我?

March

Time flies time flies time flies.

Time move faster when you are hiatus.

February past and March arrived.

Syllabus are getting tougher and tougher. I almost can't breath. I know these are nothing compared with third years student. But I still want to complain. WHY YOU SO TOUGH!?

My friends asked me why you science student always study that hard and act like very busy? Study that hard, you never get A also? Why wear so ugly to class/ lab? Why always wear jeans instead of skirt or shorts? Why you all have so many pimples? Why never make up to school?

Erm first, I am not saying that marketing, mass com, IT etc are easy at the first place but for there are loads and loads of scientific names and terms need to be memorized which will make people insane =\


I don't know why I studied so hard but can't get much As also LOL too stupid. Shorts are not allowed to get into lab so jeans and lab coat are required. Tied up the hair no fringe allowed too sometimes. But I had fun hahaha haiya i don't know why I crap a lot. * No offence kay?*

Badminton tournament in MPH yesterday. Babe boy get in second round only he was so disappointed =(

The guy is Stanley =D

Valentine's present from swatch 

Celebrated my birthday in Mid Valley. Had the lunch with my gang in Hokaido in The Garden.
And surprise! They prepared a cake for me and  I was really shocked. Btw, the cake tasted good ♥

Thomas Sabo for my 21st birthday present from my friends ♥

Carol was so charming that day. Long sexy dress with sexy make up xD

From left : Chupei, Carol, Ching Min and Nini

Kwong Meng, Nini, Alvin, Carol and me

Went to Library in Mid Valley for second round. 

Picture taken before Nini get drunk LOL

They sang birthday song for me!

The girl has the same name with me. What a co-incident. 

Thank you for the effort ♥

Ching Min and me

We ordered Volka and Hoegarden. And Nini's face turned red after few cups. 

This is Benny!

♥

Thank you for celebrating my birthday and also putting so much of effort. I appreciated all you have done ♥

1. Thank you Nini for always accompany me to library and always listen to my very-loso-   complains. Thank you for being with me whenever I face with some difficulties. 

2. Thank you Chupei for always comforting me and be with me for so long. 

3. Thank you Carol always helping me with my studies. And also listen to me when I need a listener. 

4. Thank you Alvin for be with me although you have very lame jokes. 

5. Thank you Benny for your kindness. And always helping me when I am poor. 

I have too many things that need to be thank you. And I am that kind of person that won't speak out my mind even I am touched (face problem xD) 

Thank you for all my friends to bear with my stupid temper. I know I get angry easily and used to throw temper tantrum to all of you. I am so sorry 

Thank you for the company which make my Uni life more and more interesting 

And I guess is time for me to gain more weight. I looked so thin and pallid. 

Urghh! Really need to do something different to change the situation.

Good night people. 

Sign off with love ♥